Monday, December 15, 2008

This can be better…

In an effort to update, as per Caren’s request, I thought I’d sit down and try to write something.  I am very much an emotional writer.  Some choose to eat, some choose to drink…me, I choose to write.   However, because I write when I’m emotional, all of my posts tend to be a bit more on the sad side…sorry. 

In my attempt to write something a little more sunny, I tried to play some feel good, fluffy, make-me-wanna-smile music, but that just felt wrong.  Fabricated happiness doesn’t translate on paper…the cursor just blinks at me like it’s saying “You can play all the happy, peppy music you want.  Until you put on your sad, sappy music you love so well, and really start writing about how you really feel, I’m just gonna blink on this blank page in protest of anything you think you’d want to write to come off as anything but how you really feel.”

However, I’m not really into share time right now so I’ll just leave you with this…

Have you ever wished you could step outside yourself for a moment?  See the world’s view of you…see if what you try to put off is what actually comes across…? 

Or…if you really think about it, the question becomes: Are you really that good at hiding how you feel? 

This is a battle
And its your final last call
It was a trial, you made a mistake, we know
But why aren’t you sorry, why aren’t you sorry, why
This can be better, you used to be happy, try
-Colbie Caillat

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