Daily Dreaming

So I realize that it’s been quite some time since my last blog.  It’s a good thing I’m not a professional blogger, I’d never make any money.  As I sit in my apartment on a Friday night listening to The Weepies “The World Spins Madly On” on repeat, I realized that there are many thoughts rolling around in my head right now.

Summer is here and so far I’ve done nothing worth writing about.  Yes, technically we’re still a few weeks away from the official start of the season, but it’s hot as crap outside…close enough.  

It’s been just over a year since my grandfather passed away and not a day goes by that I don’t miss hearing his laugh or seeing his smile.  Marcus left for Iraq three days ago.  It is taking all that I have in me not to think that dream about his homecoming in a body bag.  What a horrible thought…I know.  But seeing all that I’ve seen in the news and my work in the news doesn’t bode well for my outlook on the brave soldiers risking their lives in Iraq and Afghanistan.  And for what?  I’m still in the dark about that.  

I feel like sometimes I take my life totally forgranted.  I have everything in the world at my fingertips right now, and yet, I can’t help but be contemplative and emo in my thought process tonight.  Maybe it’s because it’s Friday night and I’m sitting alone in my apartment blogging.  Maybe it’s because I miss Paul, even though I just saw him last week.  Maybe it’s the song on repeat.  Lots of factors are contributing to this random compilation of words and thoughts that make no sense.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to move back home to North Carolina.  I know somewhere Heather is reading this and thinking about all the wonderful things we could do once I move back.  Trust me, I think about it too.  But then I think about everything going on in this city right now.  True, I might not be taking full advantage of Washington DC, and the friends I have here, but it’s here for me to enjoy.  Maybe one day I will move back to NC…maybe not.  I’m not closing that out, I’m not closing anything out as possibility for my life.  

See, I said this was random.  At least now you know what I’m thinking.  Instead of concluding, cause there’s really nothing to tie these thoughts together right now, I’ll just end with a period.