Not enough time..
I will never be able to understand God’s timing. I will never be able to understand God’s reasons. Call it the divine mystery if you will.
God sent Katrina for some reason, though no one can tell me why, and no, I’m not listening to Pat Robertson when he says they had it coming. God sent the Tsunami, though no one can tell me why. God watches as thousands of innocent people are dying left and right in the pointless, yes, I said POINTLESS war in Iraq. God made me to live this life with the most wonderful grandpa in the world, and now he’s slowly taking him out of my life, though no one can tell me why.
My amazing grandpa was told yesterday that without treatment, he has between five and eight months left. And of course, my grandpa would rather spend those short months doing all he can, and not feel sick, which is how he would feel if he were doing chemotherapy.
I’m not mad at God, this is all a part of his plan, I just don’t understand why his plans turn out like this…with so much pain and sorrow. If there was a less painful way to fulfill God’s plan, I’d say sign me up, but I know there isn’t. So, insteand of prayer for my grandpa to miraculously be healed, I pray for peace of mind, for me, my family and most importantly, my grandpa. He’s been there for the best moments and memories. I’ll hold on to them for the rest of my life, but I’d almost rather hold onto my grandpa.
